- Do I blame someone for my mental illness or instability? Do I blame someone for my Anorexia? Yes! I blame myself.
When God created this world, he knew that humans will get very far, even to this point – the present. I think that, in the beginning, he just wanted to create and give life to a realm, in which peace, health, stability, kindness, happiness and positivity will dominate.
And even though he knew humanity would get to this dark point that we are in today, he still made us and he still takes care of each one of us and cherishes us. I truly believe in God and I am proud of this! If you don’t, then I want you to know that I really do respect you and your choice! Each one of us has the right to choose their own path and who they want to believe in. I choose God! He is my father!
Sometimes, when we are at our best, when we truly feel alive, in the hands of success, we forget of him and we do not pray to him anymore. And, we usually end up doing reckless things and then regret the chaos that we have created in our lives.
When we are at our lowest point in our lives, like I was a while ago, we end up praying to God and realize that he is the only one that can actually save us from our sins.
Or we can hate him for he’s done to us. We can put the blame on God every time we fail.
Do I blame someone for my mental illness or instability? Do I blame someone for my Anorexia? Yes! I blame myself. I cannot blame the Media for my disease, or parents or friends, or teachers. I blame myself, because I chose my own path and destiny. And I also chose recovery!
I will never blame God, for he is my creator, my listener, my father! He is there! In his own realm and he carefully watches each one of us! He wants to see us happy and fulfilled!
I tend to believe that God really is happy when we learn to love ourselves, when we embrace our flaws, when we understand our illness and slowly cope with it or seek help and treatment.
I think that, when we accept ourselves, our mind, soul and body, God is really proud! ❤
So, fight, beautiful soul! God is really proud of you! ❤